As we live, we build walls, walls around us to secure us. Imagine the room in which you are sitting, what if it had no roof? It would be scary…. it walls were not there… wouldn’t it be? It would be rough, it would be insecure and it would keep you on your toes, not able to concentrate on reading this blog entry of mine. These walls bring comfort. Limiting yourself, looking through the small keyholes of prejudice before letting anyone in… it makes you safe. When you do something that you normally don’t do makes your day memorable! It is like the day when you chose to open the window only to shut it before too much of wind ruffled your papers of security.
When I talk of change, I am not talking about doing drastically eccentric stuff, I am talking about going with the flow and it’s not like I am pointing fingers. This entry is actually a self evaluation. I want myself to extend my horizons, take chances, explore the possibilities and crap like that.
Sometimes, people or the circumstances push me to change my routine, and sometimes the motivation comes from within but, there is always this overriding feeling of fear. The fear of the unknown. My experience says that talking to oneself is the best remedy to clear out this fear. I can talk myself through things.
When my school finished, an insecurity crept in. How would life be now? New friends, new life? A search for a new identity. Life pushed me to deep waters and I learned to swim.
When I go to a new department after finishing one posting in college, I slowly grow an attachment to it.
Most new things we fear are the things with those we later fall in love. There is nothing in this world which doesn’t take getting used to; there is nothing more taxing than the process of getting used to a new life; and what is life which is not a bit taxing and testing? It’s a new life everyday with new people, old wisdom and new mistakes.
–A sunny positive Abhyudaya!